God Delivered Me From Alcohol

God Delivered Me From Alcohol… This Is My Testimony | From Addiction to Freedom

In today’s video, I go over my testimony of how God deliver me from alcoholism. 

God delivered me from alcohol, and I’m sharing my testimony to give hope to anyone who feels stuck, lost, or struggling with addiction.

There was a time when alcohol had control over my life. I felt trapped, empty, and disconnected. But everything changed when I surrendered and allowed God to step in. This is not just about quitting alcohol — this is about healing, freedom, and transformation.

If you’re battling addiction, temptation, or feeling like you can’t break free, I want you to know this: freedom is possible. Your story is not over.

In this video, I share:
• My struggle with alcohol
• The turning point that changed everything
• How God delivered me and gave me strength
• What helped me stay free and disciplined
• Encouragement for anyone fighting addiction

Transcript

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There was a time where I could not go out and socialize without feeling like I needed a drink. And one drink would turn into two, two turns into four very quickly until God stepped in. If you are new here, I am Vanessa Elaine and my channel serves women who are wanting to pursue a relationship with God or you already have a relationship with God and you just want to be filled. So I talk about how to live life with Christ and becoming the best version of yourself. And of course, we throw in a little lifestyle in there beauty, skin, and all that good stuff. So if that sounds like something you're interested in, don't forget to like, comment, and subscribe. Subscribe because we're on a mission to get to a hundred thousand subscribers before summer. And I know that's a little extreme, but I know that we can do it. So let's get into it. I'm gonna just give you a brief background on my history when it comes to drinking. I actually started drinking at the age of 21. Yeah, believe it or not, I actually waited until I was 21, only because I grew up in a Haitian household and my family wasn't really saved. Like my parents weren't saved, although I did go to church sometimes, occasionally. I remember one day my dad was drinking a Heineken, and I was probably like, I think I was like five or four, I don't know. And then I asked him, hey, let me get some. And he put it in my mouth, and my tongue like tasted a sip of it, and I was so disgusted. I vowed to never drink again. But here I am at 21. This is my before Christ days. And I just thought that was something that I had to do because I'm I turned 21. Now I'm legal to do it. I did not like the taste of alcohol, y'all. I didn't, I was like, what is this? This is what people are going crazy over. This is what I waited for. So I was like, ugh, yuck. This thing burns my chest. It doesn't taste good. Yuck. But then you go to partying, um, and that's just something to do. You're around environments, atmospheres, around people who are drinking. So you're just doing it because it's something to do. You really don't like it. So that's where I was. So I wasn't a person that would buy a bottle or just drink just for the heck of it. If I was at an event, maybe a wedding, and they had an open bar, I would probably indulge, but not really. I would have one drink, and that's like me babysitting one drink. And then I, as life went on, I started to date people who that was a part of their lifestyle. Like we're going to these places like the strip club, we're going um to bars to hang out, and drinking started to taste better. Alcohol started to taste better to me. And let me backtrack a little bit. I remember getting gifted a Cyroc bottle. I don't don't ask me why I was gifted a Ciroc bottle, y'all. It was a my homeboy child. And this is before Christ. So he gifted me a small Cyroc bottle. And I remember going through a breakup with someone I was with for a while. And that Ciroc bottle was in my freezer for I think almost a year. Never touched it. And while I was going through that heartbreak, I noticed I could not sleep. So what I did was I would take a shot of that, the shot of Ciroc, and that would put me to sleep. Like the alcohol put me to sleep. I don't know if anyone else had that experience. That was crazy, but that's like what kind of drew me into alcohol. Like it became a coping mechanism, something that I used to cope with heartbreak or just life. And then now I'm outside. Now I'm dating people, and that's a part of our lifestyle, right? Now drinking is it is incorporated with everything that we do. For in order for us to have fun, drinking had to be a part of the fun. That's what I noticed. And then I get saved. Once I get saved, I just automatically knew, like, oh, I don't want to get drunk anymore. Every time I drunk alcohol, I got drunk. So what I would do is I told myself this, God didn't give me no revelation of this. I just knew it was a sin to get drunk. So in my mind, I said, okay, I'll just drink wine and champ or champagne when I go out. So I just took it upon myself to put these limitations or these set of rules where I would only drink champagne or wine in social functions. So that would be at a wedding, at a birthday party, things like that, or out to dinner. And I would probably have more than one drink. I'm just gonna be real. There are times in my life where I noticed that one glass of wine will turn into three. So there was no real limit that was set in place. I was still getting tipsy. Although I wasn't as drunk as alcohol would make me, like the hard liquor, I was still getting somewhat drunk. I was not sober-minded. So I didn't get that revelation yet, right? And it will, I would only have these days, only when I go out and so often invited to parties and stuff, right? Then fast forward where God truly delivers me. But I have to tell y'all what was going on in my life around that time. I had just moved to Houston. And if I don't know if I ever shared this, but I moved to Houston with a broken heart. Not only what did I have a broken heart, I had backslid where I was abstinence for five years and I fell. So dealing with that, trying to rebuild my life, I'm in a new city and trying to find my way. And I did feel so ashamed and so far away from God around that time. And in my mind, I moved to Houston with my mindset on this is me rebuilding with God. God, show me what you can do because it's only going to be me and you. There's not going to be any distractions. And child, I was distracted because also in my mind, that was the flesh. I have to go outside. I have to meet people. In order for me to make this the best experience, I have to go outside. And coming out of where I was, meaning I was still in sin. Like I was trying to rebuild my relationship with God. You cannot be outside and trying to make friends or trying to date when you're dealing with shame. You have to definitely go before God and deal with that shame because the enemy is still going to have his way with you because you're still dealing with shame. You don't feel like you're one with God. You don't feel God in your life. So that's where I was. So I'm drinking. And not only did that drinking cause me to do a still indulge in fornication. And then it started to make me think like, hmm, well, I am older. Now I'm in my 30s. Nobody's gonna really wait. Nobody's waiting. The devil is a liar. The devil is a liar, but I knew it was wrong. So this is me still one foot in, one foot out, like, okay, God, I know this is wrong because I I'm I'm feeling it. My my spirit is like, mm-mm, I got we gotta go. But my flesh is like, man, we haven't fun. We outside, like you did it the right way. And what what did you get out of it? You wouldn't get married, you didn't like what changed? You did all of that, like what's up? And it's just like, hmm, even coming out of this, God had to change my mindset when it came to abstaining from sex because it's not for a husband, it's to honor my body before him. Clock that. And I noticed that since I was brokenhearted and these new situations that I was getting into, these new situationships that I was into only left me more empty. So I came back crawling to God, right? I knew like this is not me, this is not even my identity. Like, yeah, the flesh is pleased doing these things, but my spirit is grieving and I don't feel any peace. And once you know better, once you have tasted the goodness of the Lord, you're never gonna want to stay there. Trust me. So I came back to God, but then there was still this stronghold with alcohol, and I didn't have a limit because I was still searching. And you sometimes you got to find out like, what are you searching for? Trying to numb the pain, trying to numb, like, I don't know where I am, I don't know what numbing those things with alcohol, or if you haven't healed from things in your childhood, not thinking about it because you're always kind of intoxicated, or your whole view on having fun is drinking, is escapism. And in order for me to break free from that, I had to let go of alcohol. But you know how many times that I said out of my mouth that I would never drink again, and I found myself going back to that same altar, and it's just like, hmm, if this thing has more power over me, then it's not something that I could easily put down. I'm gonna need the power of God to lay this down. So this is where God delivers me from alcohol. When I tell you this is so supernatural, I am so quick to tell people this story because sometimes I can't even believe it. You know how people talk about the supernatural uh manifestation of God, and it's just like it can just happen. Y'all, God can literally heal you and deliver you. Nobody don't have to lay no hands on you, it's just a matter of time. You just have to ask and believe and really want it. I remember having a dream, and this came after um me going out. I went to a little spot in Houston. I went out with a friend of mine at the time. And in my mind, I'm only gonna have one drink. I set this limit for myself, and then people kept sending me drinks. I'm like taking the drinks, and it just kept coming, and all of a sudden, the room started turning. The friend that I came with disappeared. Yes, y'all. She disappeared. She, I heard she got kicked out. I don't know. Then I thought I lost my purse. Now I'm searching, but there was this man that was there. Thank God for Gene. He was there, and he took it upon himself to take care of me because he saw that I was not there, that I was drunk. This man did not know me. He briefly introduced himself, like trying to talk to me at the bar. But I was like, Yeah, engaging in conversation, but it was nothing really. And he took it upon himself to take care of me. He found my car. He didn't not know where I live. He said I was knocked out, like I would not get up. And it was the only time I got up was to throw up. So he had no choice but to get a hotel room, put me in a hotel room until I wake up to find out, like, hey, like, girl, tell me about my night. Because he said I fell out of the car at one point. It was just a mess. And thank God some God sent him because you know what that could have ended in. I could have got raped, I could have got taken advantage of, I could have got robbed. I had a Rolex watch on that night, I had jewelry on that night. I had a lot of things on. So imagine what could have been done to me that night. And Houston, y'all hear it in the news, is not all the way safe. It's an open carry state, and they don't have no mercy when it comes to women. Like anybody can get it. But God sent Gene, who did not know me. Shout out to Gene, who did not know me, to save my life that day. And that was just a wake-up call. And I was like, oh, I'm just not gonna go out. But it's like, God wants us to live free, not in bondage. Just because something is out of sight, out of mind, until you really deal with it, you're not set free. So me going out doesn't solve the problem that's just suppressing it. Because the moment I go out, I'm going back into that same stronghold. I'm still tied to that thing. God wanted to set me free so I can live freely and go out and be uh be myself and really live this life according to his will. So after that experience, I have a dream. And this dream was like no other dream, y'all. I woke up with my bed trenched, like wet, soaking wet. In the dream, I was driving my car normal. In the dream, I'm seeing outside the window, like it's me actually driving. And all of a sudden, my eyesight goes black. But I hear the traffic, and as I'm driving, the car begins to accelerate while my vision is no longer there, where I'm seeing pitch black, but the car is going faster and the brakes is not working. And I hear the traffic, and all I'm thinking about, oh my goodness, I don't want to hit nobody, I don't want to crash into nobody, I don't want to hurt nobody. I wasn't even thinking that about myself at first. I was like, oh my gosh, I don't want to hit anybody, I don't want to cause harm to anybody. And then I was like, I don't want to die. Then all of a sudden, when I say that, I stop. I stop, my vision comes back, and I'm in like in front of a house with a tree. The tree is hangs over, and my car is parked run right underneath the tree and with the shade over it. So the tree is covering the car, but it's the sunlight outside. There's no one around. The sunlight is just like refreshing. And I get out of the car and just start walking, and I woke, I wake up. And I was like, okay, what does that dream mean? And then what that dream meant, the revelation I got was you're losing control over your life. I have to let go of the steering wheel and ask God to step in. And I knew exactly what I needed to pray for. My prayer was this say this prayer. It works in any area, even when it comes to sex, lust. I asked God, God, first I went into repentance because repentance is everything. I said, God, forgive me of my sins, forgive me for getting drunk, forgive me. And I pray, Lord God, that you change my appetite for alcohol. Let me not desire it, Lord God. Change my appetite, change the way I view it, change the way I feel about it, Lord. Then the test comes because I don't know if it worked. I just prayed it, but I really wanted it. I prayed with a sincere heart that I truly desire to be set free. I did not no longer want to live in bondage, especially after that dream. You thought me being drunk and almost being out there, think of a dream saving me, but it's just like me being out there, that would have been a wake-up call. No, I probably would have still been drinking. I'm just gonna be real with you. I would have just had my control because sometimes we get into these situations and they were like, okay, well, I'm just not gonna do that no more. And we don't give it to God. No, give it to God. This time around, I gave it to God. I said, This is something that's trying to take my life. And when I reflect back on my family, all of us are drinkers. I have functional alcoholics in my family where they'll get drunk all night and wake up tomorrow morning and go to go to work early, like nothing ever happened, like they're not even still drunk. They're able to work, and I don't want that to be my life. Because all it takes is a little leaven to ruin the whole bunch, the whole bunch, right? Imagine if something traumatic, another breakup or a heartbreak that would have happened to me, and that would have been the one that took me out. That would have been the one where I'm out on the streets. Because those people on the streets were once people of status, people who had dreams, people who were living their dream, and all it took was one thing, one situation. It wasn't even really one situation, it it was a plethora of things, but it was only one catastrophic thing that kind of the brain goes into shutdown. And what we use to cope, especially if you use alcohol to cope, that's the thing that you're gonna draw near to, and then it's just gonna be downhill from there. And I didn't want that to be my story, so I knew okay, God, and you gave me that dream. That dream was so clear to the point I felt like I was in the car for real. That's why my whole bed was soaking wet because I was sweating. So here comes the test. I go out to one of my favorite restaurants here in Houston, Joey Uptown. I sat at the bar. I didn't even intentionally sit at the bar. That's where they sat me because there was no other place to seat me. And I was like, oh, I don't want to sit at the bar because I'm not drinking. And this is how I knew God delivered me supernaturally. They asked me what I want, and I was gonna, I was gonna say something. Because usually I would compromise. Even after I say I don't want to drink, I would sit at the bar and order a drink because that's what people at the bar do order a drink. I didn't order a drink, I ordered water. In that moment when I ordered the water, it wasn't me. It wasn't like it was by my own might or my control or my self-control. No, it was something in me that no longer desired it. I had all these bottles in front of me. Some of them I take a liking to, like a lemon drop, reposado. That was my girl. I didn't have the desire.

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Like it was something that I fasted, I prayed, I said, God, take it out. Everything that's in me that's not like you, my mind and my spirit. God, make me one with you, Lord. God, I don't want to, and all of a sudden, I didn't feel nothing.

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Like a switch went off. I no longer desired a taste of alcohol, and I know that was nothing but the Lord. That's one instance. Another instance, I'm like, hmm, I'm not testing the Lord, but he put me in situations and environments to show me how supernatural he works, how this is all him. I go to a wedding, and you know, they have the glass of champagne so we can do the toast and everybody sips. Mind you, it's only this much champagne. It's not even a half a glass. As they're doing the toast, I'm like, well, in my mind, I said, I don't want to be the odd boss, I'm gonna take it. I know this ain't nothing. I'm not gonna get drunk off this, so I know this isn't bad. I put the glass to my mouth and my mouth would not even open. I know that was nothing but God. I don't want to cry, but Jesus that was nothing but God. My mouth did not even open. Sometimes you don't know what God is saving you from. You may think like, well, everybody else is doing it is normal. It's not it's not a sin. Oh, it's not this. But if God is giving you a conviction to lay something down, lay it down. And I'm not saying, oh, you're gonna do it by your own might, lay it down at his feet and surrender and ask him to help you because this the supernatural power of God transcends all when I tell you, it's like something broke in me. I'm like, oh God, you are real, that anything that I am struggling with, I know I can ask you that you are gonna deliver me. I don't need nobody to touch to lay hands on me. And I'm not saying there's anything wrong with laying hands, that's not what I'm saying, but I'm not gonna wait for somebody to lay hands on me to ask God for deliverance. If I'm in my home at 12 a.m. and I feel like something is coming against me, or I feel like I'm struggling with something, I'm not gonna wait till Sunday to get to church in order to ask for deliverance or seek after deliverance. I know that I can reach my father at any time and day, that he is near to me and he cares for me, and he wants me to live a life of freedom, and he wants that for you as well. And for the people who are gonna be in the comments, because I get these comments all the time drinking is a sin. We can go back and forth on what it is. This is not what this video is about. Arguing about whether it's right or wrong. My best advice is this because what I know for sure, having a sober mind is everything. And when you have a personal relationship with God, you're gonna ask him, God, is this okay if I do this? And if you hear from him, you'll know if he tells you to lay it down, will you lay it down? And would you even ask? In 1 Peter chapter 5, starting at verse 6 through 8, it says, Humble yourselves, therefore, under God's mighty hand that he may lift you up in due time. Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you. Be alert and of sober mind, your enemy, the devil, prowls around like a roaring lion, looking for someone to devour. When you don't have a sober mind, you give the enemy access to you. And that's just the reality of it. So if anyone is struggling, even if you don't think it's a struggle, if you find yourself casually always going out and you have to order a drink in order for you to have fun, in order for you to feel like, oh, well, I cannot eat without drinking, you gotta ask God, is this a stronghold? Has this become an idol? Is this something that I could lay down for you? And if anything that you cannot lay down for God, you know that's a problem. So ask God and see what he reveals to you. And if anyone is dealing with fornication or lust, it may be tied to alcohol. I'm just gonna be real with you. Alcohol may be the seed that that spirit is functioning out of. You have to understand the enemy is very cunning and his tricks, all he needs is a little leeway into our lives for the Those other spirits to come in. So you have to ask God. Those things you do not know because it is in the spirit. And if you are not sober minded, you're not going to be able to be vigilant at those things. You're going to be blindsided. The enemy loves when we are not sober-minded. Because when we are not sober-minded, we cannot hear from God. Clearly. But one thing about it, I'm not going to lie, God will always come through. God will meet you wherever you are. Because I have heard testimonies where people say they were laid out drunk and God spoke to them. So he is not a respective of persons, but let that not be you. Don't let it get to that point where you have to have God reach you there. Come willingly. Come willingly. I forgot to mention this. During the process of me seeking deliverance from this, I did not only pray, I prayed, and that was the beginning. Then I opened my heart to him. Then I fasted. I not only fasted for like a week where I only had water. And I believe I fasted from 6 a.m. to 6 p.m. And I only drank water. And I was praying that this stronghold be broken off of me. I also spent quiet time with God where I was very intentional about going out and dating God. I know people think that's doing the most, but you did the most for man, and what did that lead you? Where did that leave you? When we do the most for man. So I'm willing to do the most about my daddy. So if I want my quiet time to not only look like me in my bedroom or me in my home, it's me at the park, getting fresh air and reading my Bible and having a little healthy snack. Yeah, I'm gonna do that. That's me going on a date with God. It can look different. And that's how you keep it like I don't know, exciting and refreshing, and you make him a part of your life, not just a relationship you do on Sundays or Wednesdays or when you're at church. No, he is your life. He's the foundation, he's everything for me. And life now, I just feel so free, y'all. I feel so free. Thank you, Jesus, for delivering me from alcohol. I cannot believe it because if anyone knows me personally that is watching this video, you know I would always say, I'm gonna stop drinking, I'm gonna stop drinking. And I could never keep my word. But look how God delivered me. And it he did it in a day. What I couldn't do in years, in over 10 years, I could not do. We serve a God of suddenly. Me not drinking and being sober-minded has helped my relationship with God tremendously because I'm not all over the place. I'm not seeking escapism where I'm really dealing with maybe things that come up while I'm on my healing journey with God instead of let me go out, let me have a drink. No, I'm really sitting before God. Like He is my healer, He's my redeemer. So I'm not seeking outside validation anymore or seeking after things to fill me up in those empty places where it will never happen. It feels so good to be free. And I know what he has done for me, he wants to do for you. You may not even have a so-called drinking problem. You may be just a social drinker, but I prompt you to ask God, is this honoring him or is this a stronghold? Does he need to bring forth a conviction there? Because I'm gonna also say this you not drinking kind of removes certain people from your life as well, where there is no real relation, or you guys can't have fun without drinking, being involved. So they don't even think you're fun anymore. You may not even think they're fun anymore when you subtract the alcohol. And that may be the thing that is holding you back from going further into God and further into what he is calling you to do and really stepping into who he has called you to be and fully accepting your identity in Christ. Don't delay yourself. I hope this has encouraged you. I hope this has brought some clarity and revelation that God cares for you and he wants the best for you. This is not to shame you, but this is to ultimately set you free so you can live your best life. And if this video has helped you and has resonated with you, I want you to share it with five other people. Don't even just make it woman, make it about men too. Men can hear this word and this can set them free too. I pray that this touches their spirit and this lifts up their soul. That my testimony is one of many. I know God has delivered many people from this. So I pray that the same way he has blessed me with this newfound identity and freedom, I know he wants to bless you the same. And do not forget to like, comment, and subscribe. We're on our way to 100k. We have to be at 100k by my birthday. That's my goal. So if you haven't subscribed and join the family, this is how you show your support to our channel. I love you, sisters. Until next time.

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Bye.